Beauty In A Fall

In her toughest adventure yet Canadian mountain guide, Julianna Howatt, seeks to embrace her identity as a trans woman following a fierce struggle with cPTSD.

Beauty In A Fall

In her toughest adventure yet Canadian mountain guide, Julianna Howatt, seeks to embrace her identity as a trans woman following a fierce struggle with cPTSD.

From a young age Julianna didn’t feel like she belonged. However, upon finding the weird and wonderful world of rock climbing, she dedicated her life to mountain sports and becoming an IFMGA guide. Despite her love for the work, existing in the mountain guiding industry led her to feel unsafe publicly expressing her true gender identity. It was only after a life changing accident and a series of serious wake up calls that she took time off guiding and started to seek support and therapy for cPTSD.

Join Julianna on her journey to self-discovery in the face of an industry that struggles to accept folks who currently fall into the margins of mountain culture. Visiting the mountain-scapes that were her livelihood, she confronts her past experiences and her journey's cost.

After having taken a step back from her role in the mountain community, Julianna is now ready to share her story and use her experience to advocate for an inclusive future for the guiding community.

Runtime 27 minutes

Featuring Julianna Howatt, Colin Zacharias, Lindsay Andersen, Shep Howatt, Carl Trescher and Kim Younger-Laboucan.

Directed & Produced by Nat Segal

DP & Editing by Colleen Gentemann

Cinematography by Ryan Collins & Casey Dubois

Upcoming Screenings

August 28th

VGFF Film Night with Out On Screen
Vancouver Patagonia, BC

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September 5th-7th

Winter Park Film Festival
Winter Park, CO

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More screenings coming soon.

November - December

Women’s Adventure Film Tour
Australia and New Zealand

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To request a screening or host your own please email natjsegal@gmail.com .

“I went into my experience with the intention of working through the avalanche, climbing events and trauma but what happened was finally embracing myself as a trans woman and coming home to myself for the first time.”.

— Julianna Howatt